Last night I got arrested and on this I will only say that I will do my utmost to abide by the bail conditions set. I have also agreed to edit and re-word aspects of the site that could be misinterpreted. My apologies for any inconvenience caused.

Until the allegations against me have been resolved I will not add much more content other than to update this article and smooth out the emotions from what is obviously very difficult subject matter for me to be as objective as I would like.

The fundamental purpose of this site has been achieved which was to make sure my daughter could one day find out about her Dad rather than have to live a lie. And I'm assured that's a perfectly legal thing to do. The second objective was to provide a link for when she wants to communicate with her Dad, and not a moment before. That seems perfectly legal too.

Another achievement is confirmation of my daughters name. This means I can write a will so that I may leave everything to my only child. Until I got arrested and shown proof of her name, I was unable to do this. Another is some recognition that I am Teagan's Dad which did not exist before. My name isn't on the birth certificate but last night I was informed that it is acknowledged that I am her father.

Another achievement is I now know there are extra pairs of eyes out for the welfare of my only child. Since I cannot comprehend the depth of malice required to specifically make sure of making me miss every second of my only child's childhood... This deeply disturbs me, and it pleases me hugely that Teagan will be watched out for more closely. I'm more than happy to take a slap on the wrist for that too, if that is what must be the price for all these achievements.

So now after all the pain I have fulfilled my promise to my conscience and my daughter that I gave it everything to show I would not be a 'do-nothing' father. I have shown that I care very much. I further feel that I inflicted minimum inconvenience possible to achieve all these objectives. I am also more than willing to take a slap on the wrist for preventing my daughter having to live a lie.

Furthermore the blackout of my existence to my daughter is clearly over, and I can be reasonably confident that one day she will know me, or at least of me, depending on how quickly the obstacles to my little girl knowing her Dad crumble away. So after years of torment I must now turn my energies to being the best Dad I can be for when the aforementioned obstacles are removed.

This I can now happily do. At last the blackout is broken and there is a future to look forward to. There were a few motivators without which this website would never have existed. One was Lucy's clear message that I must miss every second of my daughter's childhood for no good reason. Another was the sheer cruelty in the way she refused my request to see her once in case I died when I was very ill. After asking for my phone number!

But the primary motivator was my answer to the question "But Dad, if you have a computer science degree, why didn't you try and make contact over the internet?" I hope I have answered that question in full and there will be no look of doubt in her eyes. That look in her eyes will be everything to me.

And if that's a crime. If it must appear that I was a do-nothing Dad, and had to appear and behave as if complicit with whatever lies were said by others, well then I simply couldn't live with myself. The human condition itself would then appear to have become a crime from which their is no avoidance. For we are all just human beings.

Finally thank you to those who expressed their wishes and brought the butterflies to life on the front page. And all those who wish for innocent children to have the family they deserve. Your support has touched me greatly.

Paul